I want to have a function in your life. Whatever limited amount there is will end this year. The inevitability of disconnection is scaring me. I have lived through a handful of falling outs. But I guess, threshold was never really my cup of tea. I have none. I am torn between making the most of the little time or using it to ease my way out of this impending separation. When I close my eyes, I imagine a void — and I’m falling endlessly into it.